Exciting Adventures & Horrible Tragedy

I haven't posted a blog in 9 months... And yet so much has happened. I guess I'm going to have to recap what's been going on since I last wrote. It's weird to think that I am a wife. And that my last name is different. Ever since I was little I remember dreaming about what it would be like to be married, and how my wedding would be, and how perfect the day would be... And how handsome my husband to be would look. And well my day was more than I could ever have asked for.

I woke up as early as I could, given that my bridesmaids and I went out the night before. We didn't get crazy, just went out for dinner, and then a couple drinks. I got dressed and went to get my nails painted, then for my hair appointment. My hair came out great :) I was so happy with it! Then I went to belk to get my makeup done. I wanted something different so I went for a bold look! But I was happy with my decision :) it seemed like this day was dragging, not going by fast!!! I wanted to marry the love of my life already!! When we finally drove to the yacht club it was getting more and more exciting, as I was setting up last minute things, and the DJ was setting up I was thinking to myself "omg I'm getting married today" I was so blessed to be able to have a nice wedding that all my family and friends could attend. I made it look exactly the way I saw it in my head.

When it finally got down to the putting on my dress part, I was getting so nervous! I hoped everyone was starting to show up, and everything was going as planned. I finally got to wear the dress I fell in love with at David's bridal, the dress I stalked a lady for. And then when I went to another David's bridal they had it in my perfect size, no alterations needed, it was like fate.

When everyone was dressed and ready to go my heart was racing even more!! I hoped that the song I wanted played would work perfect, I hoped I wouldn't fall, I just wanted things to be amazing. When I finally gave the go ahead to the flower girls, and then my bridesmaids, I was thinking holy cow this is happening. I'm getting married, now.

And it was now time, time for my dad to walk me down the aisle and give me away to my soon to be husband, Jason Zimmerman. I was finally getting everything I've ever wanted and more. My dad looked so handsome in his tux. It seemed like forever for the que to go from the DJ. I wanted to walk down at the perfect time in the song.

As I walked down the stairs, I was shaking like crazy! The song that was playing was making me tear up, everything was perfect, just as I saw it in my mind. And as I got to the bottom of the stairs, and finally look up, and see all my guests, it was the most intense feeling ever! And a short second later I saw my beautiful husband to be, looking as handsome as ever in his white tux! I couldn't wait to be his wife.

When I finally reached him, I didn't pay attention to anyone watching, my eyes were on him, ad how amazing he looked, and of course I was thinking, "I hope he likes my dress." As we stood there hand in hand I was shaking like crazy. I kinda just wanted to skip to the i-do's.

It seemed like forever standing there with Jason, but I wish it would have lasted a little longer. I would love to relive that moment. We said out I do's, I was so nervous, but I was ready to be Mrs. Zimmerman. And when the moment of "you may kiss your bride" it was amazing. Kissing my husband for the first time was almost as good as laying my eyes on him for the first time, except now we were married.

As we walked back to where we were greeting everyone it was so nice to see everyone who came to our wedding. We were truly blessed. The only person I remember hugging and talking to was my grandmother, she looked so beautiful, and she started crying but smiling and hugged me so tight, and she said I love you. And it makes me tear up as I write this.

After everyone went upstairs we did some photos, with our bridal party, and then pictures with our families. It was super hard because we had so many little ones, that it was hard to get them all looking at once! But we got some shots in. We got a nice one of my dad, me, my brother, and my mom.

Going into the yacht club and having our fist dance was nerve racking but so much fun!! I loved holding Jason and looking at him, and getting that moment where everyone watched us, and admired the love we created.

The night flew by!!! I couldn't believe how fast it went! It was crazy how you hardly remember one of the biggest days of your life. All I know is I had a great time.


And I hope everyone who came had a great time too. I'm glad we choose the DJ that we did, he was awesome!!! And he played all the songs I wanted him to. Dancing with my husband, family, and friends was a lot of fun! It was defiantly a party.

The only thing I regret is not having a videographer, because I would loved to have watched it over and over again, so I can try and remember everything !! The day went by way too fast! By the time I knew it, it was time to go, and it was the last song. But it was a great end to my perfect day.

My mom had requested a song for my brother and I to dance to, and that was nice that we have those memories, and we got some great pictures too!

We were leaving right from the reception to drive to cape canavral to the hotel, we were leaving for our cruise the next morning. It was a long night!!! But we were not even tired.

On Sunday, we had to wake up early and get to the ship! I was so excited because it was my first cruise. I couldn't wait to get on board and see everything!!

Our room on board was perfect, it had a nice window so we could see outside. I was definitely glad we got the ocean view room. Of course as soon as we boarded we got lunch. And boy was it amazing!!! I knew I was gonna gain at least 5 pounds on this honeymoon. :)





After we ate we explored the ship. I was in awe of everything. I was so glad we got the opportunity to go on a honeymoon, and go on a cruise. The whole cruise flew by, it was so fun!! We had the best time together. The water was beautiful. The islands were amazing. We rented a scooter on Freeport, and got to explore alone. We also found an amazing beach were there was no one in site. Definitely paradise.

The next day we arrived at nassau. We explore the island a bit, but it was kinda creepy and we didn't want to go to far. I wanted to go to Atlantis but it was way to expensive. I know for sure that I waned to go to señor frogs! And that is where we spent the rest of the afternoon. That place was a blast!!! We got so drunk, but it was fun. I never seen my husband drunk before, and boy was it a site to see.






Our time on the ship was amazing, I loved our one on one time together. We liked to sit on the back of the ship in the 21 and over place and just relax. It was so peaceful and quiet. You would just hear the water on the boat. I would love to go on another cruise!!!

It seems like yesterday we were planning our wedding, and now it's over. Now we have been married for 6 months. It's crazy how time flys. But also you must take the time you have on this earth and cherish it, because its taken away so easily.

On August 20th, 2012 my family was heart broken, when my amazing grandmother lost her 2 years long battle with ovarian cancer. She passed away early in the morning, the day before we rushed down to spring hill because my aunt said she didn't have much time left. I had to be with her, I had to see her. But I couldn't only stay that day because at the time I was working at a daycare and I was supposed to work on Monday. We drove down, and I spent the whole day with her. My uncle and aunt were also on there way down, and also my other aunt. It was so hard seeing her like that. When I first walked in the room, I cried. She looked so sad. So weak. I just wanted to take her pain away. When I first arrived she was talking, and I even got to feed her some jello and pudding. And also ice chips, she was saying her throat was dry. It was so sad, she used to be so energetic, so full of life, and now she could barely move. It broke my heart. As the day went on she seemed to be fading. I remember she said to me, "Melissa I'm so sick." I would just sit with her in her bed and look at her, and remember how amazing she was, and how much I hate cancer. I never ever wanted to imagine her not here with us. By the end of the day she was not talking, just saying random things. But she did tell me she loved me. I stalled leaving, even though I knew I needed to get up early and we still had a 3 hour trip. I didn't want to leave, I was afraid it was going to be the last time I saw my grandmother. Before I left, I went in her room and told her how much I loved her. Jason told her he would always take care of Brayden and I. I was so hard walking out of her room.

The next morning I got the call I never wanted, that she was gone, I cried, and cried, and cried. Nothing has ever hurt so bad. I was so close to my grandma. And now I was never going to hear her voice again, she as never going to give me another lecture, never see her get excited when the buccaneers got a touchdown., never have her feed me and everyone until we couldn't eat anymore, never hear her laugh and see how it lighted up the room. And still, she has been gone for 3 months and I still cry, and I still miss her so much, it seems so surreal. How can you accept that someone you have known your whole life is gone. I just don't know, the hardest part is the memories that replay in my head. It seems like she should be sitting in her chair, or cooking dinner. Or playing with Brayden, singing round balley, round balley put the penny here. Is so sad that my son will never get to know her, and my future children will never get to meet her. I'm so blessed she was at my wedding! That will always be a cherished memory of mine. Even though we rushed to have a wedding, I'm so glad we did because my grandma was there with us!!

I love and miss you so much grandma<3 you will be forever in my heart!!